I have abandoned all my work plans for this morning: I’m hurting too much.
It’s hard enough admitting one’s failings to one’s self but having a loved one catalogue these failings and say that it isn’t personal is more than I am able to cope with. Being blamed, through my failings, for all the ills of our family is more than I am able to cope with.
I have known for years that my love was not reciprocated and that has never bothered me but, perhaps I’m a sensitive wee soul, these one-sided “sessions” just wipe me out.
This is probably another of my failings, as yet uncatalogued: I need a time out.
But what if this person is right?
I am hurting!!!
UPDATE@15.40 Am on an even keel now!
6 comments:
Illness is often at the heart of such things, within one party, or both. Illnesses that mess up with the words people use on others are hard to bear though. Mind you, I'm a biochemist/chemist not a medic, so I could well be talking pish (to use the IUPAC technical nomenclature). I often am. Hang in there.
Criticism delivered for one's own good often says more about the critic than the recipient of same.
What if that person is right? We are all too quick to believe that. So fix what you can and accept what you can't. We are all a work in progress.
Virtual hug for you Calum and hang tough.
I think you would need an independent second opinion before taking the words to hear. I think Andrew sums it up very well.
I am glad you are beginning to feel better though :-)
This is the hardest thing to take ad why it does become wearing. The same thing happened in our family way back and with all the best will in the world, it was difficult.
Sometimes it is best not to take it personally but see it for what it is. Maybe by rising above it, for no obvious reason, it gets better.
All Thanks for your thoughts.
That particular moment is passed ....until the next time.
it's the addendum: this isn't personal. Of course it's personal! but you don't have to believe it. ponder and take on board what you know to be true but throw out the rest.
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